Everyone asks me how it feels to have Summer be put down. Well, I found something that explains it perfectly. This is how it feels.

It's like...Screaming but no one can hear.  You almost feel ashamed, that someone can be that important, and without them you feel like nothing. No one will ever undertand how much it hurts. You feel hopeless... Like nothing can ever save you. And when it's over and it's gone... You almost wish that you could have all that bad stuff back so that you could…

Hey guys just thought id give an update evrythings been going very good this year ive just moved to a new barn in september and its been absloutlely wonderful and i love it i feel in love :) lol with a 16.2/.3 (its kinda hard to tell with his withers lol) hes very imporant to me hes been so good hes a rescue horse and has come a very long way at seven years old hes a pretty well mannered boy where working on jumping…

So on the 27th it will mark 9 years that i have had Valentino <3 i cant believe it!!! In a sense i feel like hes always been in my life i feel like anything that happened before him was just completely erased from my memory  its weird.  Im the luckiest person in the world to have gotten the time i have had with this special horse i literally have no idea where i would be without him! Valentino changed my life hes made me a dreamer he made me the rider i am today and i honestly dont think…

Alright, so I've been thinking about stopping riding because I don't like it anymore. It's not fun for me. I don't feel comfortable jumping above like 2'9'' now. I don't want to let myself love another horse. I'm not confident in my riding. I was done. I cried everytime I got on a horse...Not because I was scared, but because I miss Summer. It hurt to walk into the barn and not see him there. Everyone thought I was taking his death so well but on the inside, all I felt was empty. I kept…

Well, tomorrow is going to be the first time I'm back on a horse since my traffic accident. Of course, this probably seems ridiculous, but in doing this I'll be going against very specific warnings from my neurologist that I should not horse ride ever again.

His logic, apart from more than likely handling a mass amount of cases caused by falls from horses, is that my skull structure is significantly weakened and any tumble causing me to land the wrong way would be very detrimental to my…

Hello all! How've you all been? Any of you have snow where you are? We have loads here, and we get like 2 blizzards a week. '-.- I haven't been able to ride much the last few weeks because of all the snow and how cold it is and stuff. It sucks a lot. Anyway, here are some updates!!

I have started Natural Horsemanship with Blazer!! I met this AMAZING trainer down in Kentucky that…